Then, as I started getting older I noticed how I never had any guy come up to me and ask for my number. Never been asked on a date or told by a guy that I looked beautiful. I thought that it was because I was fat and ugly, and if I was only pretty and skinny then I would have so many guys interested in me. They would all want to date me. I would be happy.
I realize now... how wrong I was to think that. I catch myself from time to time thinking it, and I stop myself immediately. I tried to find my identity in guys and how people viewed me. I realize now why I am single. If I had a boyfriend, I would look to him instead of to God for help in situation. I was constantly trying to figure out my worth in boys. Since, I didn't have a boyfriend I believed that I was worthless, unlovable. I know now that I am beautiful, lovable, a princess of the King of Kings. That I don't need to find my identity in boys, but in God.
One day, I was sitting writing poems, and I wrote this poem called "Breathe." I believe that it is what God was saying to me in that moment. At one point it says, "Breathe. Breathe my child for I love you. You are my princess. No BOY could love you like I do. No BOY could care for you like I do. For I do not have a BOY for you. I have a MAN for you. A MAN who will love you. A MAN who will care for you. A MAN who follows me." I realize now that I pined over boys not men. I looked to boys for attention, but God has a man set aside for me. I just need to strengthen my relationship in God, before this man will come into my life.
God knows what is best for you. He knows when the time is right. He knows who you need to have in your life. He puts people in your life for a reason. You just need to trust Him. Everytime I am stressing about a situation I constantly say, "God I trust you about _______, you have everything in your control." I repeat it over and over again, until I have peace. Trust Him.
LADIES: You do not need a boy in your life. God will provide a man you loves and follows God. One who will be perfect for you. Who will make you feel protected, and loved. Keep you accountable and your eyes on God.
GENTLEMEN: You don't need to go chasing after girls. God has a woman set aside for you. He will bring her to you when the time is right. When you are ready. She will be a woman who loves and follows God. Someone who will keep you accountable and love you keep your eyes on God.
Listen, if you find yourself single right now don't feel upset, be glad. There is probably a reason you are still single. Maybe you need to stop trying to get attention or giving your attention to others, and maybe start to focus on God more. Maybe you need to have a stronger faith in God before He brings the right person in your life. Take this chapter in your life and strength your relationship in God. Listen to Him with making the right decision in dating a person.
Remember:
You are not "Forever Alone" you are "Forever with God."
Listen to Him.
Trust Him.
HAVE A GREAT DAY!! AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE!!!