It started in Elementary School. When people started to talk behind my back saying I was ugly and fat. Words that now, wouldn't affect me but, it did then. I didn't have any friends and I made the connection with not having any friends is because I am fat and ugly. I thought this way for so long that at times I still think it. I would tell myself, "If I was pretty and skinny then people would like me." This isn't true.
In Elementary people didn't talk to me a lot and I thought since no one talks to me I don't have any friends. Now, when there will be time that no one talks me (in person, text, or call) it makes me think that they don't want to be my friend because I am ugly and fat. I realize now that people get busy. That they don't have every second of every day to talk to me. They have other friends. I have learned to accept that fact.
I was telling someone this story about how I was treated in school and, how it has affect my life today. They told me something very important and that was, the reason why the way people treated me still affects me is because I haven't forgiven them yet. That is true. I thought I had but, apparently I haven't. It is going to be hard to forgive them, but I am working on it.
So how do you view yourself? Why do you view yourself that way? Is it because of what people have told you? Do you need to forgive them? Think about. If you think about yourself in a negative view it is important to change that way of thinking. The way you view yourself will affect your confidence. Have a great day and don't forget to SMILE!