"F*** this post.
F*** this post so much.
You want a "Why not?"
How about the way your best friend's older sister will throw up by the side of the road because she's crying so hard.
How about the way your best friend will sob for weeks in her showers, in her bedroom, in the bathroom at school.
How about the way your mother will cry every time she looks at herself in the mirror and pictures herself bringing you home.
How about the way your father's eye will NEVER stop mirroring the image of your hanging body.
Who about the way your boyfriend will sit in his room in silence, unable to eat or sleep, or even f***ing shower, because why would he want to continue without you.
How about the way the girl who called you a brother will start crying every time she sees your parents.
How about the way your family will sit in your house after the funeral looking blackly at one another, because god knowns they can't find a f***ing thing to say that doesn't just float throughout the air where you should be walking.
How about the way your sister will wake up every morning and see your door and convince herself that you could still be there, just sleeping in your bed.
How about the way your ex girlfriend will come over and pull your clothes from the drawers and cry while she holds them desperately to her face and breathe in what's left of you.
Don't dare tell me it won't change things
There may be stars in the sky and wind in the air and sun in the clouds
But without you we do not want them
Don't you dare be selfish enough to believe you aren't important to us
So f*** this post
And f*** this romanticism of suicide
and f*** you for leaving my sister to cry in her room when she thinks nobody can hear. "
I am so sorry for the language but, I was just copying word for word what this person replied. I agree with them. I does help and remind me what I would leave if I decided to kill myself. They have a point, people make suicide this beautiful thing. Like it wouldn't matter if you left that the sun would still shine and, life would still happen. That is true but, if I am not here then, I can't enjoy it. I know life is hard and, I am so sorry for what you have gone through that makes you feel like that killing yourself is the best option. It is not. If you think you are alone; you are NOT. Robin Williams, the funniest man alive. No one could really see the pain he went through that made him feel as though death was the best option. You saw how the world reacted. You saw how much he was loved. I hope you see that even though you might feel hated and, alone at this moment; you are NOT. God is always right there beside of you. You can't feel Him, you can't see Him but, He is there, He will always be. Just remember you are loved by so many. That if you decide that you need to kill yourself think about how much pain it will cause others.
Please I don't want other story on the news of how there was a teenager found dead in a home. Anyone who was found dead because they decided to kill themselves. Watching their loved ones crying barely able to talk. Watching the pictures of them scrolling on the screen thinking about what caused them so much pain. It makes me so sick and sad to see these. Like Amanda Todd.
I pray that if you are feeling the need to kill yourself, e-mail me. The second you feel the need to kill yourself just e-mail me saying HELP. You don't have to say anything else. I check my email everyday so I will see it. My email is [email protected]. You can also use the contact info. If you don't want to leave all your info just place an "X" in the required fields. The contact tab is the best way to contact me because I get those right away.
I don't want you to be another statistic. I don't want to see your name and picture on the news. I can't bare to see another one of those reports please, if you feel the need to kill yourself talk to someone or email me.
Have a great day and don't forget to SMILE!