I have been dealing with this since 5th grade. It ruined my life. I ended up isolating myself from people. I had withdrawal. i formed anger issues. This is the time my life made a turn for the worst. This is when I ran from God. I could hide this addiction extremely well. At the beginning I wasn't to good at hiding my tracks and, I was almost caught but, I learned how to cover my tracks.
This addiction is:
Pornography
Dealing with this starting from a young age as ruined my life forever. It is how I learned about sex. This was the worst way. Looking back on the day I was curious and I went on the internet and, I googled: sex, sex photos, sex videos. Just so I could get a good idea of what it was. I wasn't that close to my parents so I felt that googling it was going to be the best idea. It wasn't.
My life has been changed since that day. I have withdrawals. I have the anger problems. Everyone around me has no idea because, I do it behind closed doors then afterwards I clear my internet history and, no one has to know. I realize one thing. No one on Earth knew about it but, one person did know about it. That was God. He saw me do it every time.
I want you to know. This is not the last time I will blog about this because I need to get a little off my chest about this. I have been internally struggling, questioning if I should share this but, I realize it is the best thing to do. If you have an addiction and, you feel all alone; YOU ARE NOT. I am here. If you want someone to talk to feel free to e-mail me and, tell me whatever you feel will help you.
Don't let addiction overcome your life. You overcome your addiction. Have a great day and don't forget to SMILE!